Title : In My Arms
Author : Hayley_Cullen
Characters : Edward/Bella/Jacob
Rating : 15
Category : Romance
Spoiler : None.
Disclaimer : I don't own any of twilight. *Sigh* 
Summary: Bella and Edward have been friends since they were children. They really like each other and to be honest it is obvious to everyone. Well except to them. They are destined to be together but why does everything go wrong? All-Human.

Chapter 17

Title : In My Arms
Author : Hayley_Cullen
Characters : Edward/Bella/Jacob
Rating : 15
Category : Romance
Spoiler : None.
Disclaimer : I don't even own this computer so I in know way own Twilight! 
Summary: Bella and Edward have been friends since they were children. They really like each other and to be honest it is obvious to everyone. Well except to them. They are destined to be together but why does everything go wrong? All-Human.


 I bet you all can't believe this! I have updated again! :o I guess I just couldn't leave the story where it was. I just had to write more.

This is a very short chapter. I think it is the shortest yet. Sorry, but this more of a filler chapter. Okay, read on! :)

Chapter 8 ~ Stop Crying your heart out

Oasis – Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Cause all of the stars

Have faded away

Just try not worry

You'll see them some day

Take what you need

and be on your way

and stop crying your heart out.

BPOV

He was really gone. He was never coming back. I don't remember much after he left, all I know is that Charlie had found me on the floor when he returned home from fishing. He tried to take me to Carlisle to make sure I was okay, but I kicked and screamed and cried some more, refusing to go. I couldn't go to that house so soon. Everything would remind me of him. It would hurt too much. It still hurts now. A month later. I dipped my hands back into the warm bubbly water in the sink, grabbing another dish to wash. At least you still have Jacob. I thought to myself.

Jacob had came back the next day and refused to leave even though I had screamed and shouted at him. Telling him how much I hated him for ruining what Edward and I could have had. I know it wasn't fair to blame Jacob for this. I just shouted at him, needed to get some of the anger I had built inside of me out. I thought Jacob would leave me then too. But Jacob never gave up. He refused to leave and barged past me into the house. As Jacob shut the door I burst into tears. Everything reminded me of him. Even the shutting of the door. Jacob wrapped me into a protective hug until I had cried myself to sleep.

Jacob hardly left me in the past month. For that I was grateful. It was painful enough with Jacob, let alone if I had to face this alone. That thought was unbearable. Jacob had spent most of the first week with me just letting me cry it out. It wasn't until exactly a week that Edward had left did I realise, Edward and I were never together. So surely it was wrong for me to grieve for something that never was? Jacob was here now. He kept repeatedly telling me how much he loved me. That he would always be here for me. That was something he promised me that Edward never did. He would always be here for me. He wouldn't leave. Not when I needed him.

That was something Edward couldn't do for me. And that's be there when I needed him. He wasn't here now when I needed him so desperately. I know Jake just thinks I am this upset because he is, was, my best friend. Which was part of it. Edward and I had grown up together, I used to see him almost every day and now I was never going to see him again. Yet I had always hoped we would be more. Alice had told me years ago that she was going to plan mine and Edward's wedding. I laughed it off then, not letting on how much I wished that could be true.

That's why I felt so guilty now. I felt guilty first time around as well. When Jacob and I first started dating all I could think of, am I betraying that part of me that craves to be with Edward? At least this time, that part of me doesn't have a choice because Edward isn't here. And every time I looked into Jacobs dark brown eyes all I could see was adoration and love for me. That's when I gave up on being with Edward. I buried that part of me deep inside, refusing to ever let it resurface. I had sat Jacob down a week ago now and we had decided to pick up our relationship where we had left off. Yesterday he had proposed. I accepted.

Things had certainly changed. Charlie doesn't fish as much any more. He used to fish every weekend with Billy and Harry, Jacobs dad and a friend from La Push. Now Charlie stays at home and watches T.V with Billy. I think it may be because he doesn't want to leave Jacob and I home alone. Jacob and Billy practically live here now. Charlie even built a wooden removable ramp to make it easier for Billy to get inside the house. Why he didn't do that years ago I will never know.

There was one change that made the biggest and the saddest impact on my life, I hadn't seen any of Cullen's for a month. Not even Alice. I had text her a lot in the last month but if she replied, it was always a vague yes, no or OK. Which was strange for Alice. She was always one for texting essays and she hated if someone gave a one word answer so why would she give them herself? I had text her last night to tell her that Jacob and I were getting married but she hadn't replied. She always replied. I hadn't heard from Esme and Carlisle either. Which was just as strange as Alice not replying. If Esme and Carlisle hadn't seen me in over a week they would always call and see how I am, or invite me round or even stop by to talk to Charlie and I. Esme and Carlisle were like my second Mom and Dad. And losing them added to the pain too.

It wasn't fair to say that I had moved on and forgotten Edward. That couldn't have been further from the truth. He was always in my thoughts and will forever be in my heart. I'd lie awake at night and think of him. Remembering all the small details. His eyes, his voice, his smell, his hair, his chin, his nose, the way it felt when he would wrap his arms around me, the way his smile made my heart flutter. I couldn't help but compare Jacob to him. I know it wasn't fair to do that. Yet I still did. Every time Jacob would hug me or smile at me I try and pretend he is Edward. I know it is wrong of me but I do wish he was Edward a lot of the time. Until I would scold myself. You should be grateful you have someone. And I am.

It was times like these I wish I was close to my Mom. I normally would talk to Esme about problems that only a motherly figure could help you with. Now I had lost her too. Other girls were lucky to have their Mothers to talk to about problems like these. Get some advise. Yet, it wasn't Renee's fault that we weren't close. It was another fault of my own. After Renee had left Charlie for Phil she asked me to come with her to Jacksonville. But I refused, wanting to stay with Dad after he had been so hurt. I sent her the occasional email but apart from that we no longer talk. I had refused to talk to her over the phone, only seeing her when forced to at family meals. I had told her I could never forgive her for what she did. Until now. Now, I understand. Charlie was her Jacob and Phil was her Edward. She had the chance to be happy with Phil and not just stay with Charlie. I would never get that chance again. I decided I would call Renee soon and tell her about Jacob and I, and also tell her that I understand why she left Charlie and that now I can forgive her. Hopefully some good could come out of Edward leaving.

Warm arms snaked around my waist. Jacob placed his chin on my shoulder. “Hey Bells.”

“Hi.” I turned my head slightly to look at Jacob. When my eyes met his, he sighed.

“You were think about him weren't you?” Jake said, knowingly.

“No.” I denied too quickly.

“You always were a rubbish liar,” Jacob chuckled. Then sighed again.“But you are crying.” I blushed embarrassed at being caught out. Traitor tears! I hissed in my head. Annoyed at myself and my pathetic tears I pulled off the rubber gloves, throwing them back at the sink. “Sorry.” I mumbled. Jacob spun me around to face him.

“You have nothing to be sorry for.” He whispered as his thumb wiped away the tears. He left his hand on my cheek. My eyes fluttered closed. “I know you are hurting Bella.” He wrapped his arms around me and squeezed me to his chest. “I'm not going anywhere. ” His whispered low in my ear before he placed his lips on mine. He deepened the kiss slightly before pulling away as I opened my eyes. He smiled and took hold of my hand. “I think that's enough washing up done, how about we go sit with the old men and watch some football?” I nodded and Jacob gave me one more sympathetic smile before pulling me into the living room.

Hope you all don't hate me for Bella and Jacob getting back together.

But I am afraid to say there will not be an update tomorrow and possibly not the day after either. I have to go into to school tomorrow. I know what your thinking... “Wait?! Isn't half term?” Yes it is. And I am willingly going back into school. :O But I have to spend the whole day doing I.T so that I can finish one GCSE and that means in the next lessons I can work on another GCSE. Woohoo. Two GCSE's :)

I also want you all to look at the song at the beginning again. I really think out of all the songs this one fits the best.

And also before some of you go and fetch your guns to shot me, Bella is not getting back with Jacob because she isn't hurting any more. Just because she isn't moping like she did in New Moon doesn't mean she isn't hurting.

Thank you for reading :D Please review :)

Title : In My Arms
Author : Hayley_Cullen
Characters : Edward/Bella/Jacob
Rating : 15
Category : Romance
Spoiler : None.
Disclaimer : I don't even own this computer so I in know way own Twilight! 
Summary: Bella and Edward have been friends since they were children. They really like each other and to be honest it is obvious to everyone. Well except to them. They are destined to be together but why does everything go wrong? All-Human.

Two chapters in one day? Aren't you guys spoilt! :P

This chapter is going to start roughly half way through the last chapter. That way you get to know what Edward was thinking :)

Chapter 7 ~ Wake Me Up Inside

 

Evanescence ~ Wake Me Up Inside

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside.
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside.
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark.
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run.
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone.
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become.

EPOV

As soon as Jacob looked at me and that smug smile that I knew too well had returned to his face, I completely lost it. I dropped my coat and flew at Jacob. Knocking him to the floor. Jumping on him I let my fist fly out. My first punch made Jacobs nose give off a satisfying crunching sound. Broken I thought smugly. I thought of all the times he had hurt me. All the times he had broken something of mine. Anger flew threw me and I punched more and more. “Edward! Stop it!” Bella was screaming at me but I didn't listen to her cries. All I saw was red. I punched his face, his chest, anywhere I could. Something caught hold of my right arm but that didn't faze me. I punched with my left arm hoping that would still do some damage. “Stop it!” Bella screeched in my ear. This time I did. The sound of Bella's voice had managed to clear some of the red haze. I jumped up off of the scum that was underneath me and turned to Bella.

“Bella you can't honestly believe him! He cheated on you!” I pointed at him, shouting louder at Bella then intended. I opened my mouth to apologize when Jacob groaned. I shot a glare at him. His blood was running down his face. If it was anyone else I would have offered sympathy, but as I inflicted these wounds and it was Jacob I refused to do that. Instead thinking about what he did when it was the other way round. When he had made me bleed. He kicked me. So I did just that. Hard. In his side. “Your a piece of shit Jacob!” I spat at him.

“Just get out Edward.” My eyes widened and any anger left in me suddenly disappeared. I stopped breathing as Bella crouched to hover over Jacob. She placed her hand on his cheek. His eyes drifted to meet mine as he placed his hand onto Bella's. His eyes were smug. But I couldn't find it in me to be angry. Bella and told me to get out. She looked back up at me. All I saw in her beautiful eyes were concern and hurt. I willed for that concern to be for me. I knew it wasn't. She had her Jacob back. She doesn't need me. I would just ruin any chances for her to be happy. So there was only one thing I could do. I opened the door.

“Bella, I am sorry for upsetting you. I hope you will be happy with Jacob, I really do. You won't have to worry about me any more. Unless you tell me any different now I will leave for good.” Please, please tell me to stay! I don't want to leave you! Just say the word and I will be here for you, to be anything you want me to be! Nothing. She didn't utter a word. I sighed as I could feel my heart shatter. “I will not stay where I am not wanted so I guess this is goodbye. I wish you all the happiness you deserve Bella. Jacob, you can burn in hell.” I stepped through the door and slammed it hard behind me. I pulled out letter from my pocket and bent down to slip it under her door mat. All I could hope is that she would find it. Sucking in a deep breath I ran to my Volvo. Now desperate to get out of here. Pulling the door shut I turned the ignition on and sped out of the driveway, speeding down the road, the opposite direction to my house.

My cell phone vibrated in my pocket. I pulled it out, the id read “Pixie”. I flipped it open and pressed it to my ear. “What!” I grumbled, keeping one hand on the wheel. Alice giggled.

“Am I interrupting yours and Bella's getting together time?” Wow. I didn't think today get worse. But of course it would. Alice had talked to me all night last about what to say to Bella. She also suggested some things that shouldn't even be thought of until you have dated at least a few months not minutes. She had been so excited that Bella and I would finally be getting together. Now I had destroy that happiness. As if today hadn't already been painful enough for me. “Edward, are you still there?” I tried to pluck up the courage to tell her. I just couldn't do it.

“Alice I have to go.” I had my finger hovering over the end button when Alice's laugh rang out.

“Can't you two wait a few minutes?” I understood immediately what she was suggesting and it felt like a dagger to my already broken heart.

“Alice, Bella and I not together okay!” Alice's laughter stopped immediately.

“What do you mean Edward?” Alice voice was suddenly serious and business like.

“Jacob turned up.”

“Jacob,” she hissed the name. “How dare he after everything he has done to Bella! Wait, what difference does Jacob make?”

“Apparently a lot. He told Bella he didn't cheat on her. He said Leah kissed him. He told her it was all one way.”

“That lieing ass hole! No, please tell me Bella didn't believe him!” I sighed and Alice took that for confirmation. “How could she be so stupid! They were practically shagging in front of us! That is it! I am going to talk to her tomorrow. She needs to-”

“No Alice.” I cut her off. “Let her be.”

“What?” I could hear the thick confusion in her voice.

“She is happy with Jacob. I told her to stop me if she wanted me in her life all she had to do was tell me not to leave. Obviously now she has Jacob she doesn't want me.”

“Edward surely she wants you in her life. You are best friends if not more!”

“Alice. She didn't stop me.” I knew the next thing I would say was horrible and that it would kill Alice to do this. But it was best for Bella. “You need to promise me Alice that you won't interfere with her relationship with Jacob. She loves him and if there is going to be any hope for her to be happy with him, you can't ruin it for her. Don't tell her the truth about Jacob and Leah or even the truth about my feelings. You need to leave her alone.”

“But Edward-”

“Promise me Alice.”

“Okay. I promise.” Her voice cracked.

“I am so sorry Alice. I know you love her too.”

“I understand.”

“Can you do me one more favour?”

“Sure.” She sniffed.

“Tell Mom and Dad I love them, okay?”

“What, Edward why can't you tell them yourself?”

“Because I am not coming back. I can't. As long as Bella and Jacob are in Forks I can't return there. It will hurt too much.”

“Please don't.” Alice sobbed.

“I'm sorry Alice. I love you.”

“I love you too.” Her voice cracked again. I chose that moment to close the phone and slide it back into my pocket. Deciding it was best not to drive right now I pulled over. I let my head fall back, hitting the head rest.

Why does everything go wrong? Why can't anything just be simple? I ran my hand over my face. I am a total idiot. Why had I left it so late to tell Bella how I felt? I knew I loved her when I was 15. I had three years to tell her and yet I still hadn't. Instead of putting up a fight when Charlie told me I wasn't good enough I let Jacob go ahead and win the heart of my girl. I deserved everything I got. I sighed and closed my eyes, letting myself think of how Alice had planned this day.

Last Night

“I love you Bella. I always have. I want us to be together.”

“Good. But maybe it needs to be longer.” Alice nodded whilst writing down some lines on her notepad. “Yes, needs to be longer.” She handed me the notepad, motioning for me to read it.

“Bella you are my shining star, my world, my everything. You don't know how much you mean to me. I love you. I want us to be together. Please, be mine.” I looked at Alice and raised my eyebrow. “Are you kidding me with this? This sounds like some cheesy line out of a book.”

Alice rolled her eyes and sighed. “What's wrong with wanting a man to be romantic? I'm sure Bella would love this!”

“No,” I disagreed. “She would want me to be myself.”

“Well, what are you going to do? Say what Emmett said to Rosalie?” Her voice took on a deep tone as she mimicked Emmett. She stood up and tried to beef her self up. “Yo bitch. How 'bout you and me get it together.” I laughed. “Some how I don't think Bella is going to be impressed by that.”

“No. She really wouldn't.” Alice plopped herself back next to me on the couch.

“Bella would love something romantic, wouldn't she? So hows about you go and tell Bella how you feel then drive her back here for a romantic meal? Candle light and everything. I'll cook a big meal for you two whilst you are around her house. I will even get rid of everyone. And don't worry, once I have served up I will disappear too.” I smiled brightly at Alice. She was a genius.

“Alice that is an amazing idea!” She smiled smugly.

“I know.”

“But are you sure this is going to work?” I asked, nervous again.

Alice placed her hand on my shoulder. “Of course it will. No one deserves happiness like you two.” She smiled and gave my shoulder and encouraging squeeze. “Now I don't know about you, but I think it is time to get some sleep.” She stood and stretched. “Don't worry, Edward. It is going to be fine.” Alice said before leaving my room.

“Don't worry, Edward. It is going to be fine.” Those words swam around my head. Everything was far from fine. I have lost Bella forever. She was never going to be mine. She would never know how I felt. I also just made Alice promise me not to interfere with Bella any more. Bella was also Alice's best friend and I just took her away from her. What about Mom and Dad? What would they say when they realised I wasn't coming back. I guess I wouldn't find out. I just needed to get out of Forks and never come back. With that thought I turned the ignition back on and pulled out into the road. Destination: anywhere but here.

 Chapter 8

A bit of a sad chapter, isn't it? Sorry about that. I know a number of you prefer Edwards POV but we may (nothing is ever certain) not hear from him for a while. Sorry. Again.

Thank you for commenting on my story, it means a lot to me :)

Please review as I did get this chapter out so quickly! (Don' get used to it!!)

Lots of love! Xx

Hayley

Title : In My Arms
Author : Hayley_Cullen
Characters : Edward/Bella/Jacob
Rating : 15
Category : Romance
Spoiler : None.
Disclaimer : I don't even own this computer so I in know way own Twilight! 
Summary: Bella and Edward have been friends since they were children. They really like each other and to be honest it is obvious to everyone. Well except to them. They are destined to be together but why does everything go wrong? All-Human.
 

 I hope you like this chapter, I think it is like Marmite. You will either love it or you will hate it! Enjoy!
 

Chapter 6 ~ Earth to Bella

Incubus ~ Earth to Bella

Earth to Bella
You think you’ve got it all figured in
Earth to Bella
Everything you know is wrong (well almost)
Earth to Bella
I see where you are not listening
I bear the burden of being the voice that let's you know
We all grow old
And before you swim you've gotta be okay to sink

BPOV

I opened the door and as soon as I saw that face I could feel all the air whoosh out of me. “Jacob?” I wheezed. I stumbled slightly. Everything was spinning. What was he doing here? How dare he show up after leaving me for two months!

“Bells are you okay?” His hands fell to my waist trying to support me. I smacked them away, stepping back from him. He stepped through the door following me, his hand out stretched slightly. “Bella, please.” I shook my head at him. His hand encircled my wrist, stopping me from stepping back any further. “Bella please, just listen to me.” He whispered softly whilst his eyes pleaded with me. I heard footsteps behind me.

“Bella, I really need to talk to you.” Edward's voice rang out. I looked over my shoulder to see Edward walking towards me. He looked pointedly at Jacob. “Alone.” He exaggerated the word. I turned back to Jacob. A flash of anger crossed his eyes. It was gone so quickly I was sure I wasn't supposed to see that.

“Sorry, but I need to talk to my fiancée.” He turned to me, flashing me a quick smile. I snatched my arm back. I opened my mouth to argue when I caught Edward's expression out of the corner of my eye. Hurt and anger, mixed into one.

“Edward?” I turned to fully face him, Jacob now behind me. His eyes flickered to me. All the anger washed off of his face. But the hurt was still present. He walked towards me now just inches apart.

“Bella, please, I really need to talk to you.” His emerald eyes were pleading. I heard Jacob scoff from behind me. I turned to glare. How dare he scoff at Edward when he left me!

“Jacob why don't you just go! I want to talk to Edward. At least he didn't leave me for 2 months after cheating on me!” Jacobs eyes widened and his mouth fell open. I felt slightly smug for managing to shock him that much. Jacob managed to recompose his expression. I expected him to say something to me but instead he surprised me. His eyes flickered to Edward.

“Edward, if you care about Bella at all you will let me talk to her.” My eyes flickered between Edward and Jacob. Their expression were the same. Neutral.

“I do care about her. That is why I won't leave her to talk to you.”

“Edward please. I need to talk to Bella. It is crucial that I do so. She seems to be under the impression that I cheated on her.”

“Will you both stop talking about me. I am right her you know!” I said, exasperated. Edward eyes met mine but Jacobs were still fixed on Edward. Then something Jacob said suddenly sunk in. “Wait, what do you mean under the impression?” Something flashed across Jacob eyes. It disappeared to quickly for me to comprehend.

“Bella, I didn't cheat on you.” His eyes bored into mine. They held nothing but honesty. I shook my head. But I saw them kissing. “Bella, please listen to me. Leah kissed me. I didn't ask her too and I didn't want her too.” I kept shaking my head. My lips formed words but nothing came out.

“This is ridiculous Bella. Jacob is a liar.” Edward said.

“I am not a liar. Leah kissed me. I didn't kiss her.”

“Then why didn't you tell Bella straight away instead of leaving for two months.” Edward quizzed. I turned back to Jacob. I wanted to know that too.

“Because I was scared. I didn't want Bella to reject me I care about her too much. I thought she would tell me to never speak to her again. I left to let her cool down.” Jacob turned to me, his eyes pleading. All the pieces seemed to fit together. I guess the reason he left me was understandable. But I was sure I had seen Jacob kissing Leah back, his hands up her top. Could I have been mistaken? “You believe me, don't you Bella?” Jacob whispered, his eyes begging now. I bit down on my lip, my eyes now on the floor. It made sense didn't it? He knew how hurt I was because my mum cheated on my dad when I was young, I had told him how upset that had made my dad. Surely he wouldn't do that same to me? Could my mind have been playing tricks on me? Because I was so disgusted and hurt by what I saw maybe I had mutated it in my head. I looked back up to Jacob. I scanned his face for any sign that he was not telling the truth. Nothing but honesty. So I nodded.

His eyes brightened up. The shifted to look behind me, a smug smile played on his lips. Before I could question it Jacob was suddenly knocked backwards slumping on the floor. Edward flew past me and jumped on Jacob. His fists made contact with Jacobs face and body. “Edward!” I screamed out. “Stop it!” I ran at him, grabbing hold of his right arm. His left fist kept punching. “Stop it!” I screeched louder. Edward stopped and he shot up off of Jacob. Pure hate directed at Jacob was radiating off of him.

“Bella you can't honestly believe him! He cheated on you!” He pointed at Jacob. Jacob groaned, his hand flew to his nose. The blood was running down his face. I could feel the nausea creeping on. Edward turned back to Jacob, his eyes held fury. “Your a piece of shit Jacob!” He shouted as he kicked Jacob hard in his side. I gasped as the thud of Edwards foot making contact with Jacobs side echoed around me.

“Just get out Edward.” I whispered harshly. This was a side to Edward I had never seen. And it scared me. Jacob shuffled towards me so that he was no longer blocking the door. I knelt down next to Jacob, holding his face as he tried to stop the flow of blood from his nose, it was defiantly broken. His other hand moved to hold the hand I was using to hold his cheek. Edward was still staring at me. At my hand on Jacobs cheek to be more precise. I could see the sadness he had in his eyes. Edward took on last look at me before he opened the door. No. No no no! I didn't mean it. I let go of Jacob. I wanted to say something. Anything. Just to stop Edward walking through that door. I couldn't speak. I couldn't even breathe.

“Bella, I am sorry for upsetting you. I hope you will be happy with Jacob, I really do. You won't have to worry about me any more. Unless you tell me any different now I will leave for good.” He paused, waiting to see if I would stop him. I wanted to. With all my heart. But I was frozen. Edward sighed. “I will not stay where I am not wanted so I guess this is goodbye. I wish you all the happiness you deserve Bella. Jacob, you can burn in hell.” He stepped through the door, slamming it hard behind him.

Edward was gone. Forever. He wasn't coming back. All I had to do was to say stay and he would still be here. My eyes welled. Shit. Bella you have truly messed this up for you. I could hear from outside the engine of his Volvo start. Suddenly my brain kicked into action and so did my legs. I jumped up and over Jacob and sprinted to the door, pulling it open as quickly as I could not breaking my stride as I jumped out of the door, leaping down each step, using the last one as a spring board. Amazed that I made it this far without falling I looked up from the ground.

Edwards Volvo pulled out of the driveway and sped off down the road. “Edward!” I called out using

all the volume I could. I knew it was hopeless, yet I still ran. I ran down the drive shouting Edwards name over like a mantra. A sob broke free. The car was too far away for him to hear me. I pushed my legs harder. Come on Bella you have to do this! I willed myself. I pushed harder but my foot suddenly caught on a rock, sending me to the floor. I lifted my head looking for the Volvo. Another sob racked through my body. The Volvo was gone. The tears and sobs freely came now. The pain was intense. It felt as if when Edward left he had ripped out my heart and taken it with him. I heard footsteps approach me.

“Bella, I am so sorry.” Jacob said from behind me.

“Just go please Jacob.” I whispered. My voice held no emotion. I heard the footsteps retreat in the other direction. Sucking in a deep breath I pushed myself up. I felt weak, unstable as I stumbled back to my house in a daze. I can't believe how this day had turned out. I thought Edward and I were going to be happy together by the end of it. Then Jacob came and ruined it. I groaned. Who am I kidding? I ruined it. I could have told him how I felt when he threatened to leave. I should have shouted at him. Told him not to go. Instead I just let him. I am a fool. No one else would have been stupid enough to watch their love walk out the door! I climbed up the stairs leading to my still open front door. The sobs shock me as I shut the door.

On the floor by where Edward was stood before he hit Jacob was his coat. I swiftly picked it up. I held it close to my chest, leaning my face into it and sniffing it deeply, taking in Edwards glorious smell. The smell I would never get the good fortune to smell again. I would never see Edward again. I fell to my knees, the world now spinning as the blackness consumed me.
 

Chapter Seven
 

*Duck and covers!*

I would just like to say even though Jacob is horrible to Edward he does care about Bella.

Also, I would like to say I am very sorry for the turn this chapter has taken. But Edward's POV will be up soon! Either the next chapter or the one after. I think it will depend on what you want to hear first... So let me know! :)

As always please comment! More comments = quicker updates. :)

Title : In My Arms

Author: Hayley_Cullen

Characters/Pairing: Bella/Edward/Jacob

Rating: 15.

Category: Romance

Spoilers: None.

Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don’t own any of the characters, it all belongs to the wonderful SMeyer! If I did own Edward, do you really think I would let him out??

Summary: Bella and Edward have been friends forever! They really like each other, and to be honest, its obvious to everyone! Well, except to them. They are destined to be together but why does everything go wrong? All-Human.

Quick Authors Note : Before you read this chapter, I just want you to know, I have changed it so that both flashbacks happened four months ago. Also, this chapter is once again dedicated to twilight_topas, whose Birthday it is today. (14th January) Happy Birthday bb! And so here it is, chapter four. Haven't had time to check this over as I am posting this  before I leave for school. When I get back I will check through it. =D Hope you enjoy! 

Chapter Four ~ Unwell.

Matchbox Twenty ~ Unwell

I'm not crazy

I'm just a little unwell

I know right now you can't tell

But stay a while and maybe then you'll see

a different side to me

I'm not crazy

I'm just a little impaired

I know right now you don't care

But soon enough you're gonna think of me

And how I used to be.

BPOV

Before I could ask what was so urgent Alice had already hung up on me. I sighed, realising I'm must have been too reliable because she didn't even wait to hear my answer. I threw my cell phone onto the passenger seat before reversing out of the small parking space and drove out of the car park.

*****

I cut the engine as I parked outside the white mansion. Once the deafening roar of my truck was no longer blocking my ear drums from any other sound, I noticed that it was to quite. It was almost eerie. Normally laughter filled the airwaves around the house. I shook my head. Stop being paranoid. I thought to myself Alice just wants to talk, maybe the rest of her family have gone out.

Why was I feeling so nervous? This house is practically like my second home. I had been here so many times before. I got out of my truck and closed the door behind me. My gaze fell back onto the large white house in front of me. I loved coming to this house. I used to come here everyday. I'd play with Alice and Edward all day until Charlie had to come and drag me home.

What ever Alice was going to say couldn't be that bad. Could it? I shook my head again, trying to shake out that thought. Not everyone is out to hurt you, Bella. I sucked in a deep breath and made my way to the porch.

I pressed the door bell, as I waited nervously for Alice to open the door. I could hear her footsteps reach the door. She greeted me with a wide smile. I immediately relaxed. I felt so stupid for expecting Alice to say something that would hurt me. I felt the urge to smack my forehead. Not everyone is like him.

“What did you want to talk about Alice?” I questioned as we walked towards the living room. She took a seat on the large white couch, patting the seat next to her, I sat where she indicated. She waved her hand, her way of telling me she will get to it later. Her large hazel eyes looked down and widened, a small smile played on her lips.

“Bella, why are you wearing my brothers coat?” I instantly blushed and looked down. I could feel her eyes still on me.

“It was cold.” I mumbled. She laughed. “What did you want to talk about Alice?” I asked, determined to get the subject off of me. Her laughter stopped and her face became serious.

“Bella, are you okay?”

My brow furrowed. “Of course I am, why wouldn't I be?” Confusion lay thick in my voice.

She shook her head, grasping both of my hands. Her eyes looked straight into mine. “I mean, are you really okay?” I stiffened and didn't respond. “I didn't think so,” she mumbled under her breath. I pulled my hands out of hers and look down, seeing nothing. “Bella you don't have to suffer in silence, I am here for you, you know that, right?” I nodded. “Bella, please, just hear me out. Don't block me any more. Please.” I looked up to see her eyes shimmer with tears.

“Alice?” I asked, hesitantly. I hadn't ever seen her cry. She was always too happy and upbeat for tears. She breathed in deeply, trying to control the sobs that threatened to over come her.

“Bella, for two months now I haven't had my best friend. You have been locked up. Because of what that jerk did to you. Do you remember that day Bella?” I looked at her as if she was mad. Of course I remembered that day. “That is not what I meant Bella. I meant do you remember what happened before we saw-” She stopped mid-sentence, worried she may have upset me. I kept my expression neutral. “Do you remember before we drove home?” I racked my brains. But I honestly couldn't remember. I instantly felt guilty. “I didn't think so.” I winced at the hurt that was in her voice.

“Alice, I am sorry.” And I truly was. I was so wrapped up in my hurt, that I didn't even notice how much I had hurt my best girlfriend. A half smile made its way onto her face.

“I understand, honestly I do. But you don't have to suffer in silence. I am here for you Bella.”

“I know Alice. And honestly, it doesn't hurt as much.” Her eyebrow raised, questioning if what I said was true. “Alice, I mean it. Of course, it hurt seeing it. On the day he is supposed to leave on a business trip we see him kissing another girl. Of course that hurt. And yes, it hurt when I gave him my engagement ring back. Yes it hurt, but.” I stopped to take in a deep breath. “He isn't worth it.”

Alice squealed, pulling me into a tight hug. “I am so proud of you.” She whispered into my ear. I laughed and pulled back.

“You should have called me over before Alice, if you were missing me.” A guilty expression crossed her face. “Alice?”

“That wasn't the only reason I called you over.” She look down at her hands. “I called you over to talk to you about Edward.” Her words didn't make any sense to me. My eyebrows pulled together in confusion.

“What about him?” Alice gaze lifted to meet mine, and for the second time today, the second time I had ever seen, her eyes were glistening with tears.

“Bella, it was hard to loose you two months ago, but to loose my brother as well.” Her voice broke twice. She sucked in a deep breath. “Have you noticed that in the last four months he has changed?” Like he isn't in that body at all?”

“Like he is dead inside.” I whispered.

“Exactly.” Alice mumbled. Her gaze fell back to her lap. It was only then, seeing her so fragile, did I realise how much pain she was in. She had lost the two people she felt closest to, apart from Jasper. “How can I help?” I was determined to help, to finally put Alice out of this misery.

“Bella, how do you feel about Edward?” She said suddenly, her eyes now clear of tears. I blushed, instantly looking down.

“How do you mean?” I questioned, refusing to meet her gaze.

“Are you purposely being dumb, Bella?” My head shot up.

“Excuse me?” Alice huffed. Then she became very serious again, taking my hands into hers, staring straight at me again.

“I know you both are best friends but I want to know, do you feel anything deeper for him?” The blush covered my whole face this time. I shrugged, looking down once again. Alice sighed deeply. I could feel her eyes burning into my skull. I met her gaze and she squealed. “I knew it!”

“You knew it before I could even admit it to myself, Alice.” I mumbled. Alice's expression turned smug.

“You are just easy to read, Bella. But anyway. Are you in love with Edward?” As the blush deepened, Alice knew the answer. “I am going to take that as a yes.”

“Did you just ask me to come over just to make fun of me?” I quizzed, raising my eyebrow. Alice laughed.

“Of course not Bella.”

“Alice, what do you want from me?” I asked, exasperated.

“You need to tell Edward!” My eyes widened.

“Are you insane?! I can't tell him that! That would completely ruin our friendship!” I ranted, throwing my hands into the air. Alice face held nothing but confusion.

“Why?”

“Because he doesn't feel the same.” Alice groaned, running her hand down her face, completely exasperated.

“Of course he does Bella!” She stood up, staring me down. I rose up too.

“Why would he, Alice?” I challenged. Alice groaned and placed her hands on either side of my head.

“Because you are gorgeous, you are smart, you are amazing, you are perfect, Bella! Please, and I mean this in the nicest way possible, get that through your thick skull!”

“Whatever, Alice. Your just biased.” I mumbled, pulling her hands off of my face.

“Edward loves you Bella! Do you want to know why he has been so depressed over the last four months?” She took my silence as a yes. “ Because four months ago you and Jacob started dating!”

“Well, if that is true, then why didn't he say anything after Jacob left?”

“Because he is just as insecure as you are Bella!”

“I don't know Alice.” I still couldn't believe what she was telling me. Why would someone like Edward love me? Alice groaned again.

“Would you believe it if Edward told you himself?”

“Maybe but-” The ringing of Alice's home phone cut me off. She huffed but ran off to answer it.

“Oh, hi Charlie.” Hearing my dad's name made me realise I hadn't told him I would be going out. I walked towards Alice. “Charlie...its okay.... Bella's here.... I'll put her on.” Alice held out the phone for me to take. I held my breath, waiting for the rush of anger and worrying mixed into one, Charlie didn't disappoint.

“Bella! Where have you been?! I come home and you weren't here, I tried calling your cell phone but there wasn't an answer. Why didn't you leave me a note-”

“Dad, breath okay?” I said, cutting him off. “I'm sorry, I had to pop out, I went to the park and then to Alice's, I left my cell phone in my truck, I didn't leave a note because I didn't expect you back so soon.”

“Okay, just next time, leave a note anyway.” Charlie sighed.

“Sure Dad, I'm going to come home now.”

“Okay Bells, see you.”

“Bye Dad.” I pressed the end button and handed the phone back to Alice. “Sorry Al, you know what Charlie is like.” Alice chuckled.

“Its fine, don't worry.”

“Okay, well I best go now.” I said, already walking towards the door. I could hear Alice's footsteps behind me. As I made it to her door, I turned. Alice jumped me, wrapping her arms around my waist.

“It's good to have you back.” She mumbled, against my shoulder.

“It's good to be back.” I mumbled, squeezing tighter. After another five seconds, I pulled out of the hug, turning back to the door. I turned the handle to open it, stepping through it and walked down the concrete steps.

“Bella, will you be at home tomorrow?” She called from behind me, I looked over my shoulder.

“Of course, why?”

“Oh, no reason.” She said quickly, darting into the house, closing the door behind her. I suddenly couldn't wait to get home. So much had happened today that I just wanted to go to bed. I noticed then how dark it had become.

A smile played across my face. If what Alice had said was true, maybe Edward and I could finally be together. My smile widened as I thought about us together. Bella Black didn't sound right. Bella Cullen. Now that was perfect.


Chapter Five


Author Note : Hope you liked it, I'm not sure abouit this chapter, but I dunno.
Does anyone remember that I said I sent of my college application? I have my interview on the 23rd! Scary! 

Anyway, as always, comments are <3

Title : In My Arms

Author: Hayley_Cullen

Characters/Pairing: Bella/Edward/Jacob

Rating: 15.

Category: Romance

Spoilers: None.

Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don’t own any of the characters, it all belongs to the wonderful SMeyer! If I did own Edward, do you really think I would let him out??

Summary: Bella and Edward have been friends forever! They really like each other, and to be honest, its obvious to everyone! Well, except to them. They are destined to be together but why does everything go wrong? All-Human.

Quick Authors Note : This chapter is dedicated to twilight_topas. Who is basically the only one who has read and commented on my last story, and this one. Without her, I doubt I would really be posting this chapter right now! Thanks bb!
Please enjoy and read the authors note at the end, thank you! 

Chapter 3 ~ I hate myself for losing you.

Kelly Clarkson – I Hate Myself For Losing You

I hate myself for losing you

I'm seeing it all so clear

I hate myself for losing you

What do you do when you look in the mirror

And staring at you is why he's not here?

BPOV

I was still on my knees, my hands locked around Edwards wrists, when his eyes finally came back into focus. I watched as his features twisted in pain. “Edward?” His pained face scared me, my voice was barely above a whisper. He gaze fell to my hands around his wrists, and he winced. I immediately released my grip, worried that I may have been squeezing too hard. But as I completely let go, the pained look didn't disappear and I knew then that my grip was not what was causing this pain.

“Edward?” I practically whimpered, raising my hand to place on his cheek, to give him some kind of comfort. But before I could actually place it onto his cheek, he flinched, falling back off of his knees and onto his bottom. I withdrew my hand, trying hard not to show how much his rejection hurt me.

“I have to go.” He mumbled, not meeting my gaze. He silently jumped up, and without saying another word, he strode out of the park and towards his car. I looked over my shoulder just in time to see the Volvo reversing and speeding out of the car park. I slowly stood, making my way over to the swings. As I sat down on the swing Edward was sat on before, I couldn't help but wonder what had happened to my best friend.

He had completely changed. It was as if he wasn't in that body, as if he someone else was controlling him. He wasn't the same person that I grew up with, not the same person that I- that I fell in love with. There, I said it! But what chance did I have of saying it to Edward if I can barely admit it to myself? Only Alice knew of my feelings towards her brother. Not that I had admitted it to her, but Alice knew me better then I knew myself.

I remembered that Edward changed drastically two months ago. It was the day after Jacob had returned back from his business trip.

Two Months Earlier

I sighed, relieved to almost be home. I was just so tired, I had spent all of yesterday shopping with Alice. I swear, if shopping was an Olympic event, she would win gold, no problem. My feet were killing me when I got home. I intended on sleeping in, only to be woken up by Charlie, saying we were desperately low on groceries and most importantly his favorite fish sauce. I grumbled at him, telling him to get them himself, but he guilt tripped me into it.

I stifled a yawn as I pulled up to my house, grabbing the brown paper bag from the passenger seat. I stepped out of my door, only to realise then that Jacobs rabbit was parked next to Charlie's cruiser. Curious, I walked quicker to the porch. The door was ajar, so I stepped through. “Charlie?”

“There you are Bells!” Jacobs voice greeted me from the living room. His voice stunned me, he wasn't supposed to return for another week.

“Jake?!” I called out, dropping the groceries on the floor as I ran into the living room. Jake stood up as I ran into his arms, he picked me up and spun me around, I giggled, feeling like a five year old. Jacob gently released me. “What are you doing here?”

“Sam let me go home early. We had finished all the work, so I wasn't needed.” He smiled down at me. Out of the corner of my eye, I noticed Charlie slip out of the room. I wondered what was happening, it was out of character for Charlie to leave the room.

Jacob took my hand and pulled me towards the couch. He sat down, pulling me down to the empty seat next to him. I looked down at our hands pointedly, and he released his grip, but not before I noticed that the ends of his nails were crimson. I grabbed his hand.

“Jake, what happened?” I lifted his hand to examine it, under his nails was dried blood. He snatched his hand back. His eyes clouded over.

“Nothing, just caught my hand.” He chuckled nervously, avoiding my gaze. But before I could push it further, he placed his hand on my knee. I was about to brush it off when his gaze met mine. “Bella,” he started, his voice was deeper, serious. “I love you.”

His words completely threw me, I couldn't even form a sentence. I just gawked at him. His eyes tightened slightly.

“That was the part where you supposed to say you love me.” He said, chuckling.

“Sorry, Jake, but you surprised me.” He turned to fully face me, taking my hands into his.

“Bella, I love you.” My heart stopped when he released my right hand to retrieve something from his pocket. A black velvet box. Oh please, no... “Isabella Marie Swan.” He flipped open, revealing a ring. “Will you marry me?” I could feel my head start to spin. Marriage? We hadn't even dated! “Bella?” I closed my eyes, trying to make sense of this.

“Marriage?” I whispered, afraid my voice would betray me if I spoke louder. I opened my eyes to see him nod. I felt like I had stepped into a dream. I couldn't tell what was real from what wasn't. Only a few seconds ago did he tell me he loved me, now he wants me to marry him?! “Jacob, I don't understand.” He told me before, that he hoped we would have a wonderful live together, that he wanted to be with me, but I never thought more of it, I always thought Jacob would find someone better then me. Someone prettier, someone smarter.

He sighed, releasing my hands, and turned to lean his back on the couch. “I did a lot of thinking while I was away Bells. About my life. You are the most important thing to me. I am twenty-two now. I think it is time that I settled down.” He stared at the ceiling.

“But I am only eighteen Jake. I don't want to marry just yet.” I didn't understand why he wanted to marry at his age, either. He had told me most men in La Push have married before they were twenty-one, but I never imagined Jacob to do that, to be tied down so young.

“I know Bella, I know.” He sighed. His eyes flickered to me, they were bright with a new idea. “Bells, can you promise me one thing?” He shifted to face me again. “Will you promise to marry me one day?”

I shifted in my seat. Could I promise him that? Jacob was the one I know everyone always imagined me to be with. Our dad's had always said that we would be together forever. Out of the corner of my eye, I noticed Charlie stood at the door frame. He was trying to hide, not wanting me to see him. My eyes flickered to him for the briefest of seconds, but as I caught the look in his eyes, I knew my mind was made up.

“Yes, Jake.”

Present Time

I sighed as I walked out of the park gate, strolling towards my truck. I burrowed deeper into Edward's coat as the wind whirled around me. I contemplated driving to his house to drop off his coat, but thought better of it, I may only make things worse for him if I go round, when he clearly didn't want to be around me.

As soon as I was in my truck I turned the engine on whilst turning the heat onto full. I buckled my seat belt and was about to reverse out of the parking space when my cell phone started to ring. With a huff, I pulled it out of my pant pocket. I checked the caller I.D before I flipped it open. “Hey, Al.”

“Bella, can you come round? I need to talk to you.”

Chapter four
 

Author Note : I am not sure about this chapter, there is just something about it, it doesn't seem to flow right, but I hope you liked it anyway.

I am so sorry about the long wait, I had a busy Christmas holiday, and now school has started up again, I have just sent off my college application. Sending off my college application was so scary! At least if I was in America I would wait another 2 years to do that! Argh!

So back onto this, I am tying to update at least once a week, so I don't leave it too long that you start forgetting this story!

Also, has anyone got any guesses to the name of the song that has inspired this story? This is the clue I have given you so far during these chapters.

Clue ~ Charlie doesn't believe Edward is right for Bella, mostly because he doesn't have a job.

I know, not much of a clue, sorry.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter, and as always, comment please. =]

Title : In My Arms

Author: Hayley_Cullen

Characters/Pairing: Bella/Edward/Jacob

Rating: 15.

Category: Romance

Spoilers: None.

Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don’t own any of the characters, it all belongs to the wonderful SMeyer! If I did own Edward, do you really think I would let him out??

Summary: Bella and Edward have been friends forever! They really like each other, and to be honest, its obvious to everyone! Well, except to them. They are destined to be together but why does everything go wrong? All-Human.

Chapter 2 ~ Things I'll Never Say

Avril Lavigne – Things I'll Never say

If I could say what I want to day

I'd say I want to blow you away

Be with you every night

Am I squeezing you too tight?

If I could say what I want to see

I want to see you go down on one knee

Marry me today

Guess I'm wishing my life away

With these things I'll never say

EPOV

Two Months Earlier

“Come on, you can do this!” I growled at myself. Sitting in my Volvo outside my house, the keys in the ignition, I was fighting with myself to hit the accelerator. “You can do this. You are only going to Charlie's house, you do it all the time!” I willed myself to go, to push down on the accelerator, but I just couldn't do it. I huffed as I snatched the keys out of the ignition, shoved the door open and stormed towards the porch.

I muttered under my breath as I stormed up the steps, but as I was about to burst through the door, it was opened for me. Alice glared at me. She walked out into the porch, only to push me off of it. I stumbled down the steps, but still managed to land on my feet. “What the hell Alice!?” I shouted, this was not helping my mood at all.

“Don't you what the hell Alice me!” She mimicked, “Get your ass back in that car!” I sighed, ignoring her. She walked down the steps and towards me so she was stood just a few inches in front of me. “I said get in your car!” She screeched. I shook my head at her, walking past her.

She managed to catch my arm and she dragged me back, so I was stood in front of her again. “Why not Edward?” Her voice was calm now. “What is wrong?”

“I just can't do it Alice.” I whispered, my eyes searching the floor.

“Man up! You are just going to talk to Charlie, who you have known since you were little. Don't be so pathetic!” She grabbed hold of my wrist, pulling my towards the car.

“Alice, stop.” I firmly put my feet on the ground, and I snatched my arm back. She whirled to face me. “What do I say?”

She clucked her tongue. “I am not going to tell you what to say! You need to do this on your own. Now get going! Go!” She grabbed my arm again, this time putting my force into her pull. I gave in and let her shove me into the car. I knew I would have to do this. Why not do it now?

“Are you sure about this Alice?”

“Of course I am, this is going to work out, now go!” She slammed the door shut before she ran back up the path and onto the porch. I took in a deep breath as I started the car again. Alice said this was going to be okay. It is going to be okay. With that thought, I slammed down on the accelerator and raced out of the driveway and down the road.

* * * * * *

I took in a few deep breaths, trying to calm myself down. What is the worst he can say? He could say no, but I could still ask her anyway. I shut off the car and released my seat belt. I sucked in another deep breath before I stepped out of my car.

I jogged up the path, now anxious to do this. I tapped the door three times, then ran my hand through my hair. Its not too late to back out a little voice in the back of my mind whispered. I shook my head. No, I was here now. I needed to do this.

The door opened. “I have already told you, I do not need rat trap- Oh, Edward, its you!” He opened the door wider, gesturing for me to enter. “Sorry, I thought you were another one of those pesky salesmen”

I chuckled, but it sounded wrong, it was a nervous chuckle. “Its okay Charlie.” I did my best to smile at him, but I could feel the nerves running through me.

“So, what is it Edward? Bells is out I'm afraid.”

“Oh, yeah. I know, I came here to talk to you actually. Could we go sit down please?”

He frowned. “Um, sure.” He walked past me and towards the kitchen, I walked after him. He sat in his normal chair, gesturing for me to take the seat opposite. “What's up Eddie?” I internally flinched at his use of my childhood nickname. I didn't want him to think of me like that, I wanted him to think of me as an adult.

“Well, the thing is Charlie, Bella and I have been friends since we were little.” His frown deepened, he was still confused. I decided to just go straight to the point. “I want to take it to the next level.” I heard his teeth grind together.

“You want to date my daughter?” He said the words through locked teeth. His face was turning red.

“Yes.”

“Explain yourself Cullen.” His words had a biting edge. I winced.

“Well, I know Bella better then anyone, I think we would be really good together, I love her Charlie.”

“No.” I felt my stomach drop.

“What?” I whispered. I knew that was a possibility, that he would say no, but I never actually believed he would come right out and say it.

“Edward, you aren't right for her.”

“What?!” I jumped out of seat. Charlie copied. “How would you know?!”

“Because I know my daughter. You aren't good enough for her Edward.”

“I suppose you know who is then?!” I shouted. Each word he said felt like a dagger in my heart.

“Yes. Jacob.” I felt all the blood drain from my face, all the fight taken out of me.

“What?” I breathed.

“He is perfect for her, he has a secure job, he has a house.” Jacob Black. My worst nightmare. I know if Charlie had said anyone else, it wouldn't have hurt so much. “I am sorry Edward, but he is perfect for her. He could look after her properly. Compared to him, you are just a kid.” The tears welled, blurring my vision.

“You don't know what he is like Charlie.” No one did. Only I had seen the real side of him.

“I have known Jacob since he was a little boy, of course I know what he is like. He can give her anything she ever wanted. What could you possibly offer her that Jacob couldn't?”

I just stared at him. I couldn't offer her anything that Jacob couldn't. I was only eighteen. Jacob was twenty-two. I was just a child. “Now Edward, you have to go. Jacob is coming over so he can talk to Bella about dating him.” Another stab in my heart. I sucked in a deep breath. I wouldn't let Charlie see how much this was hurting me.

“Okay. I am sorry for any inconvenience.” It was meant to sound sarcastic, but it came out whispered.

“Its okay Edward. Now promise me, you won't tell Bella that you came over today, will you?”

“Why w-” He raised his hand to cut me off.

“Because we want what is best for Bella don't we, and that isn't you is it?”

“Okay.” I breathed, before running out the door. I don't care what Charlie thinks. I still have to tell her. I need to tell her that I love her. Leaning against my car, I pulled out my phone, intent on calling Bella. But before I could press the call button, a hand grabbed my shoulder.

“Eddie, Eddie, Eddie.” I froze. The voice that caused my nightmares, that kept me awake at night. I spun to face him. His face was smug, mocking. “That is not a good idea, is it?” He whispered. His fingers curled around my shoulder.

“Just go away Jacob.” His fingers dug into my shoulder. I winced.

He laughed quietly. “I heard what Charlie said to you Eddie.” He taunted. “And he is right. You are not what she deserves.”

“And you are?! What stops me from telling Bella what you are like really?” His fingers dug even deeper, the blood seeped through my white shirt. I bit my lip to stop myself from whimpering.

“I think the answer is pretty obvious, don't you?” He whispered.

“I don't care what you do to me Jacob. I love Bella.”

He released my shoulder. He smirked at me. “But she doesn't love you Eddie. She told me her self.” His words winded me. My heart shattered.

“No. no you are a liar!”

“I am not a liar Eddie. She said to me that you are just a pathetic child. That she wants a man, not a boy.” What? No, surely this can't be happening...I wanted to shout at him, to tell him I didn't believe him. But I couldn't find my voice. What if Bella didn't like me? Why would she like me? I'm not anything special.

I looked up to see his black eyes mocking me. I couldn't say anything. I jumped back into my car, slamming the door behind me. Jacob leant down to look at me through the window. “There's a good boy Eddie.” I couldn't take this any more. I sped off into the direction of my house.

* * * * *

I parked to the side of the house, hoping no one would see my car, I needed some time to myself. As I unstrapped my seat belt, the wall broke down. The tears flowed freely.

Jacob Black. Why him? Maybe if it was anyone else it wouldn't hurt so bad. Okay, so it would have hurt this bad anyway, but for Bella to want to be with the man that has bullied me ever since I was five years old, that added to the pain.

Admittedly, I had never told anyone that Jacob bullied me. I was always a suffer in silence kind of guy. I gulped back the tears. It didn't hurt that much. Okay, that was lie. It felt like someone had ripped out my heart and set me on fire. I love Bella so much. But for me to find out she doesn't want me and to be told by him, what did I do to deserve that kind of torture?

I opened my car door and jumped out, slamming it shut behind me. Not bothering to lock it I ran up the porch steps. I tried to get into the house as quickly as I could without being noticed so I could just go straight to my room. I thought I had made it as I ran up the stairs, but as I reached the top, Alice jumped in front me, blocking my path.

“Well?! How did it g-. Oh my, Edward what happened to your shoulder?” She walked down a few more steps, grabbing hold of my shirt collar to lift it and examine my shoulder. I smacked her hands away. Her face fell immediately. “Edward?” I could hear the hurt in her voice. I know it wasn't fair to take it out in Alice, but I couldn't deal with anything right now.

“Nothing Alice, just leave me alone.” My voice held no emotion. I'm sure my face matched. She didn't protest, she let me go. I ran the remainder of the stairs and went straight to my room, slamming the door shut behind me.

As soon as the door shut, I collapsed on the floor, the sobs now taking control of me.

Chapter three ~ I Hate Myself For Losing You
 

Author Note : So now you know what was wrong with poor Edward.
Any more guesses on which song inspired this fanfiction?
Now rememeber guys, this is only my second fanfiction, so any comments/suggestions are important! I can only improve if you tell me what I am doing wrong! 

Thank you to everyone for their comments!! They mean alot to me! 

And also, I am on Christmas break, so depending on how many comments are get, I shall be able to update more frequently. =]
 

Title : In My Arms
Author: Hayley_Cullen
Characters/Pairing: Bella/Edward/Jacob
Rating: I'm going to say 15. Just because. =]
Category: Romance
Spoilers: None.
Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don’t own any of the characters, it all belongs to the wonderful SMeyer! If I did own Edward, do you really think I would let him out??
Summary: Bella and Edward have been friends forever! They really like each other, and to be honest, its obvious to everyone! Well, except to them. They are destined to be together but why does everything go wrong? All-Human.

Chapter 1 ~ Beautiful soul

Jesse McCartney – Beautiful Soul
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and you're beautiful soul.

EPOV

 

“Look, Tanya, you are a nice girl and everything, but it just isn't there for me. Sorry, but it's over.” Her eyes widened in disbelief. Her mouth fell open. I waited silently for her to speak, but she surprised me, her lips turned up into a smile and she burst in to laughter.


“Wait, wait” she said, trying to catch her breath, “you are dumping me? I'm everything you could possibly want!” She ran her hands down her frame, as if to emphasise her words.

“I am sorry, but like I said, recently I have noticed it just isn't there for me any more.” Well, that wasn't true, it hadn't been there for me at all. Tanya was not the girl I wanted at all. She was just a few inches smaller then me, she didn't have a modest bone in her body, she piles pounds of make-up on every morning, and did she not have a brain at all?! I always wanted a girl who could always keep me guessing on what she is thinking, not someone who was predictable, who constantly thought about looks. But, looks wise, Tanya really wasn't my type either. I want someone who was petite, brunette and not wear make-up excessively

She glared at me. “I always knew you were gay.” She mumbled under her breath.

“Excuse me!?” I stuttered. Did she really just say what I think she said?!

“Well, when I organised that special evening for us, you just blanked me, and I was wearing my best pulling underwear.” She pouted, then turned back to angry immediately. “How could you not want this,” she said, pointing towards her body.

“Tanya, I did not want you because you aren't as sexy as you think you are! You have the worst personality ever! I don't like you Tanya, and I never had!” Tanya's face fell completely, and her eyes welled. “Tanya, I'm sorry.” I whispered, immediately regretting the words as the left my mouth.

She looked down, hiding her face from me. “Its okay, I shouldn't have wound you up. I know you're not gay.” She mumbled. “I'm sorry you didn't like me Edward. I just want you to know, I enjoyed this last month and a half, that we spent together.” She looked up again, her mascara running down her face. I couldn't help but feel guilty. I looked away, and she stretched up to kiss my cheek, before fleeing through the door.

I groaned, falling back onto my bed. I threw my arms over my face. I finally had ended with Tanya. Good. Now I wouldn't have to put up with Tanya and her clingy ways. I keep trying to convince myself that, that was the reason I dumped her. But I knew I couldn't lie to myself, I had to admit that the real reason was I wanted someone else. Someone who was off limits. I groaned again.


 

I let my arms fall to my side and sat up. I looked around my room, for something to do now that my afternoon plans where ruined. The little silver phone on my drawers caught my eye. I stretched to it, locking my hand around it without having to leave the bed. I flipped it open, pressed one, then pressed call.

It rang three times before a voice greeted me. “Edward?” My heart thudded at the sound of her beautiful voice.

“Hey Bella, you feel like going to our park?”

“Sure, give me five minutes, meet you there, okay?”

“Okay, see you later."

“Bye.” Click. And she was gone. I sighed, putting my phone into back pocket. I ran a hand through my hair, grabbed my keys and walked through the door.


 

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I pulled my jacket collar together, trying to keep some more warmth in. I put my hands back into my pocket and headed over the the play area.

I entered through the gate and looked around at our playground, I hadn't been here since last month, when Bella was-. I stopped that thought abruptly not wanting to think of Bella in that kind of pain again. I walked over to the roundabout, running my hand along the seat. I remember Bella and I on this roundabout. We hadn't been on it since I was nine. I tried to fit in it but managed to get myself stuck, Bella still hasn't let me live it down. I turned around as the swings caught my eye.

I made my way over to it, sitting down on one of the two available seats. Without holding on to the chains, I moved back and forth slightly, keeping my feet on the ground. I thought about before live became complicated for Bella and I. When we were 15. She swung on the swing, going higher and higher, letting her head fall back, her hair brushing the floor, back and forth. I remembered the bright smile she wore, the way the sun shone on her face. That was the exact moment I realised I was in love with Bella. I gripped hold of the icy chains and started to swing. I leant back slightly, letting my head fall back. I smiled widely.

A small giggle stopped me immediately. I flung myself forward, stopping the swing dead. “Hey Bella.” I said, feeling a slight blush paint my cheeks. She smiled at me and took the empty swing next to me.



“So, how come you called me and told me to come to our park, in December?” She asked, her eyebrow raised.

“Oh, I just needed to get out. Sorry, didn't mean to drag you out into the cold.”

“No, no its fine. Its not that cold at all really.” She said, but a shiver escaped her. I realised then that she only wore a jumper. I stood, undoing the buttons on my jacket. I pulled it off and moved towards her. As I went to place it on her, she wriggled. “No, Edward! You are only wearing a shirt! Put your jacket back on.” I rolled my eyes at her.

“Bella, I will take it as a personal insult if you don't wear my jacket.” She sighed, but gave in, taking it from my hands. As our hands touched I felt the electricity flow through us. She must not have felt it, she didn't even pause. I internally sighed, but retreated back to my swing, goosebumps now appearing on my arms.

“Didn't you have plans with Tanya this afternoon?”

“Yes, I did.” I looked out, not really seeing anything, but just hoping she would drop the subject. I should have known better.

“What happened?”

“We aren't together any more.” I sighed, looking down at my hands.

“Oh, Edward! I am so sorry!”

“Why? I ended it.” I turned to look at her. Confusion swept across her face.

“But, I thought you liked her.” She stumbled. I shook my head.

“No, not really, I never did to be honest.”

“Then why did you not end it sooner?”

“I don't know,” I looked into her eyes. “I guess, well, the person I liked was taken.” I looked away again, internally hoping she took the hint.

“You like someone else? Who! Oh, you have to tell me!” I sighed, shaking me head. I expected her to argue, but there was no response. I turned to her, to see her pouting.

“Bella?” She glared, looking adorable whilst doing it.

“Tell me. Please Edward!” She whined.

“I can't Bella, sorry.” She shrugged, accepting defeat. I wish I could tell her. I wish she could just know how I felt. But I didn't deserve her. I knew that.

Bella started to swing, and I copied. She giggled as she swung higher. I pushed my legs harder, trying to get higher as well. I laughed as she started to push harder. Just then the sun broke through the clouds, shining on her face. I could feel my heart break at the beauty of her, and I stopped pushing, falling off of the swing. She jumped off, surprisingly landing on her feet and ran towards me. She fell to her knees. “Edward?! Are you okay?”

I sat up, nodding. She put her hands on her hips and glared at me, she could always tell when I lied. “Tell me the truth Edward, what is really wrong?”

I am in love you! I love everything about you, I need you! Please, tell me you feel the same. These are the words my heart screamed. But I couldn't get mouth to shout them out. I had promised someone that I wouldn't ruin Bella's life like that. The memory flooded my mind.

Charlie s House. Two Months Earlier.

Chapter 2


Authors Note : Sorry, I know. This chapter may seem a bit jumpy, but thats the kind of way Edward is as the moment. You will find out why in later chapters.
Also, this fanfiction idea came to me as I was listening to a song on my ipod. Now, I will dedicate the chapter that revels the actually song that this is based on if someone guess the singer/band and the title of the song. I will be asking for people to leave me a comment and tell me who they think it is.
Thank you reading, and I will work hard to get the next chapter up, which will be a flash back.
Hayley
xXx
P.S Excuse the mess my post is in, Livejournal is messing up! 

Title : In My Arms
Author: Hayley_Cullen
Characters/Pairing: Bella/Edward/Jacob
Rating: I'm going to say 15. Just because. =]
Category: Romance
Spoilers: None.
Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don’t own any of the characters, it all belongs to the wonderful SMeyer! If I did own Edward, do you really think I would let him out??
Summary: Bella and Edward have been friends forever! They really like each other, and to be honest, its obvious to everyone! Well, except to them. They are destined to be together but why does everything go wrong? All-Human.